If you're not gonna talk about it, noone's gonna be able to help you man. Frankly speaking I don't know how you feel cuz even though I sometimes feel pretty bad I know for a fact that I'll get back up so I never considered suicide or seriously hurtig myself. Obviously it's easy for me to say stuff like "life isn't that bad" or "don't kill yourself people will miss you" or stuff like that. And even though I honestly think that both of these statements are true for everyone I'm also pretty sure that you dont really care about shallow stuff like that which everyone can say without giving it a second thought. No offence but most likely you aren't that much of a fighter too otherwise you wouldn't feel THAT bad I guess. But seeing you post these stuff shows that you havent totally given up. Yes I dont know shit about you and I dont know why you feel bad like that but man please talk to someone. And sure there might be people who dont give a shit about you but there also are people who give a shit about others. Bruh, why do you think I'm writing this mess of a text. Instead I could be watching Anime or reading books or any other shit like that. But I'm not the type of person who would just walk by if someone was calling out for help. Talk to me, talk to anyone, call a hotline, just do SOMETHING. Give it a shot I'm pretty sure you'll feel better afterwards. Regards, a person who loves life