I've been through therapy and am starting again soon. I've learned that I value patience and compassion more than anything else in a relationship. I can see how demanding I am for it after a lifetime of missing it.

I also know that a healthy relationship is a give and take. I'm really not asking her to pick up the pieces, and I am optimistic about my future, and our potential as partners. The optimism for us however is hurried under the doubt that her impatience is inspiring. Constantly failing to meet her expectations despite me doing what I can is making a rift between us that has left me not sure what to do.

I'm trying to be who she needs me to, I have the intrinsic motivation to do it as well. But it's never enough and the fallout of our dynamic produces misery. Misery we could avoid if she could make an effort to burry her disappointment.