Background: I'm a 22 y/o female whose step-father molested her as a child. It went on for years, and evolved from touching to essentially intercourse. I informed my mother of what was happening to me when I was 5, but after watching the shock and disbelief that she expressed, coupled with the understanding of how much she loved him, I decided to apologize and take it back- telling her that I was just imitating what I saw on a television program. Although it stopped for a little while after that, it wasn't long before it kicked up again. Now, I've forgiven him for what he did to me. I don't think it really affects me anymore. Apart from that, he is a wonderful man and has supported my family for years. What has me concerned now is the fact that I'm in a relationship where for the first time, I'm really in love. I have hopes and aspirations of a happy marriage and to have children with this man. In that, I was made sick at the thought of what happened to me happening to my future child.. I am afraid to tell my boyfriend about what happened to me, because I don't want him to hate my family as we are very close and I want them to be involved in my life. But if we have kids.. I would never be able to leave them at their grandparents house unattended.. I would never be able to have my parents take them for the weekend or even on day trips.. And knowing how my mother is, and how active she will want to be in their lives, she will surely take offense. What if in all of this she realizes that I wasn't lying all those years ago? I want them to be happy.. To enjoy their lives together, and what if I shatter their marriage? I know it's silly to be bothered over something that isn't even an issue yet, but it's really got me shaken. I also apologize if this post is hard to follow, I haven't spoken out about it in detail before. Any one who has any experience or advice on the matter, I'm all ears