You are very respectful and thank you for your healthy skepticism.

I'm going to try and articulate this as best I can. This is long I'm sorry but if you truly wish to understand the concepts behind the post please feel free to read on.

Like most people many of my trips had take away messages or focal points that defined the trip and the subsequent digestion of that trip. you can say it is what I got out of the experience. Unlike most people I have talked to though a small handful of my best trips (and the train wreck trip interestingly enough) had accompanying physical manifestations that either supported the trip theme or were completely unrelated (at the time of the trip). I would call it synesthesia but that is not exactly what I am talking about. for example (this is the easiest to explain): I felt a strange sensation while tripping that there was, we will call it a whole for a lack of a better word, in front of my face. and my gaze and head were drawing an infinity sign in front of my face but every time I got to the center of the infinity where the whole was my head rock was thrown off for another loop. this was fascinating and extremely pleasurable to me. I have done a lot of introspection after this experience (most of the meaning i actually got sober after the fact in the past 2 years) but that is neither here nor there because that is the meaning I got from the event and that is mine alone to muse on. when I hear good music or get really excited my head still rocks in a similar fashion and I get a great feeling, this is now under my control.

I have at least 5 of these experiences with a physical manifestation maybe more? Id really have to think on it because some were stronger than others. But needless to say I have a few of these experiences that I have somehow connected by taking some really ridiculous cognitive leaps (even I know this, believe me I was in a very weird place for a long time) that have occurred at seemingly random times over the past 2 years (I still get them *caviat). Most of the important ones connect in one way or another in ways that I can actually explain (somewhat tangentially at times). They are mental in nature (real ideas behind them with a purpose in bettering lives) and physical through sensations and muses that I can use to better help me explain things. So you are right to an extent in saying "idea/story/focal point" but its bigger than that because there are multiple focal points I would like to hit on.

I am able to explain at least a few of them through my actions and well articulated words to get others to experience the feelings of wonder, excitement, risk, ect. that I get as well as a physical manifestation if they are lucky. Again, I have only done this once (I would consider it to be at least a minor success) and am having serious doubts about it.

I was able to convey different sensations with varying levels of success to my cousin. I think part of the success of his trip was due to me having enough of the pieces to keep his mind active and due to him trusting me (a big part of this imo, without trust he wouldn't have let me lead him down this rabbit hole). and when one idea didn't stick, I would move onto the next. Throughout the trip I would move from sensation to sensation. At the end of my thought I would attempt to get him to draw his own conclusion through an independent aha moment (I was able to do this with some success for the individual pieces but because I was unprepared I was not able to fully synthesize all of them at the end of the trip like I would have wanted to). The end goal being to get him to see what I find to be important in life and get him to start thinking about what is important to him in his life as he comes down. I really hope that last line doesn't sound selfish I have no idea if I have this life thing right, I think I have had a good start, and even if I don't the sensations I can explain feel pretty damn good imo.

Anyways My next step would be: I would really like to know a way to get someone to take action on these ideas that they find important right away once they have thought about them. Because a big part of my problem over the last 2 years was that I knew what was important to me but I was chipping away at it from angles some of which I found to be useless for 2 years after my last trip! and am only now feeling like I am making some semblance of progress. It would be great to have someone come down and see that progress right away. This is where I think my bad trip and a good trip would separate imo. conversations the following day could be useful. Tips or ideas on this?

I only wish to use drugs like this to enrich the lives of others (hence my questions) to help them become better versions of themselves. Again, I am skeptical of myself here and find this a very questionable method but my life has been enriched through my own learning process.