Well..i once and a while I use to come across adderals like 15 to 20 at a time here and there like every couple months sometimes sooner sometimes longer.

And i liked how they felt and all but it was just such a...i don't really know how to describe it really. Made me so horny I'd talk to girls I'd never normally talk to just cause I'd wanna fuck, then after my binge be like wtf i can't believe I was really talking to this chick.

And the comedowns where a bitch too cause If I got 10 I'd do them till the 10 where gone or 15 same thing kinda like how I said with coke but times 10. You just want more more more and when you run out you're brains just like oh I could do this to get more or that.

But the high was kinda fun and usefull for work sometimes and it was always so few and far between I'd do them I didn't let that stuff bother me.

Fast forward to trying meth and the compulsion/craving to re dose part was kinda similar but really wasn't so bad if I couldn't redose for a little bit a few beers or a bowl or 2 would settle me down enough to not be scatter brained. The sex craving part also wasn't as bad which I liked because I did other things besides watch porn and try and meet chick's online...which on the meth binge I did end up meeting a stripper on on a dating app that needed a ride home at 4pm and I figured hey maybe I'll get some so round trip like hour 15 min...nothing from the chick but didn't really bother me.

The meth also felt way more functional like a different type of focus then addys gave which I also really enjoyed.

But when I did it with the acid it made me realize I can't keep getting this or I'll fuck myself I like it to much and it's pretty cheap and it really does make you paranoid as fuck which I normally already am so i can kinda deal with that. But combining it with the acid and no sleep for days and the meth it kinda gave me a glimpse into how bad using alot for meth could be if that makes sense. Like just super paranoid kinda delusional but i only took 1 hit of L so i was mentally there enough to kinda realize it and remeber.

So honestly it's pretty much just to good and I know me and if i don't stay on top of myself now I'll be fucked. And I've seen the meth horror story's and how some of then act after years of use so if i wanna keep doing what I got going on now. Adding that will just wreck me with paranoia and problems.

But i will probably try it again or maybe keep a small amount on hand from "emergencies" because it really is super functional and sometimes you really really need that extra boost.

P.s. sorry for the book but i suck at summarizing experiences like that because then it doesn't make as much sense....if any of that even made sense anyways lmao