My stepdad pisses me off sometimes. Like they told me to see a therapist. My mom sent me a list of them. I went through the list and found the first person that had any kind of description beside their information and called them. That person ended up being a woman. And my stepdad decides to be a jackass and informs me that his therapist, also a woman by the way, said that this is because I need women or something. A couple points. First of all, I've voluntarily sought out a male therapist before. Do they not remember this. Do they not realize that they're just going out of their way to make me look bad. And the worst thing is the tone of his voice. He acts like it's a fucking joke. When I'm not doing well he takes that as an opportunity to be condescending. And when I was understandably upset and wanted to keep talking to my fucking parents he got bored with me and tried to shove me into a hospital. That's the other big thing. The indifference/neglect. It's always been that way with this person. He was a horrible fucking dad. My brother and I were scared to death of this asshole; bless him for actually admitting it not too long ago. He sure was way too afraid to talk about it together when we were kids. My stepdad, he's so fucking ignorant about this too. He insists it's because he's a big guy. That's his excuse. So he would get so confused about like my friend Eric back in high school. Another big guy. Why did I like him? Because he treated me with respect and didn't try to intimidate me. It's because he doesn't realize it's about the way he treats people. He just doesn't get it at all. Second point. Even if that is my issue, and that might be possible, why in the hell is that worthy of him acting so fucking contemptuous towards me. It's like, dude, you punch fucking dogs, you're so out of control. Do you not remember the way you treated me. Of course not. Discipline. If you call it discipline that means you can get away with doing anything you fucking want to me. Go eat shit and die you fucking asshole. Ugh. I'm sorry. Lost my cool there.