I don't hate anything we shared with each other as this fool no more never used you for how did I as I love you. How do you think that of me so badly. Only one other knows in the real world what you've revealed to me & they are bound by their code of practise. You do matter for how come the moment I rise my first thoughts are still of you & the same at night, in fact your constantly on my mind. I'm not saying words to please you, I'm speaking from a place of loving thoughts. I'm not leading you on or astray as you say I'm reaching out to the one who is my soulmate. The woman I wish to spend my life with. My feelings are genuine. Why else would I be here writing this to you. You have a piece of my heart I gave you that day we met. I don't want it back for I gave it willingly. That is why I am here writing to you. Not just to learn to be a better being. It has always been you always. When you let me in, my heart grew fonder for I remember how hard it was to open up to me. I never have opened up to anyone as much as you either. Look where it got me. I'm still proud I confronted my demon's, just not how I went about it. Didn't you see it how much your venerable innerself moved me each & ever time I was listening to you. I have never been so lucky to have shared what we shared. Please remember that. I made many mistakes for being so raw & venerable to each other yes did scare me. Did I run, at the start I did till the woman who I love opened my eyes up to something so powerful & beautiful I thought never existed. Unconditional Love. I say it to remind myself the meaning of it. It grounds me every time. What more can I do? I don't know what to do for you ignore my calls & texts now. This have never been a game to me & if I'm not wanted then why do you do this? This isn't fair on either of us. I promised I will be committed to you & do what I said I would do. I have honoured that promise. Deep down I believe you must still love me for what you've said. I love you. Why can't we talk by phone or person? How are we meant to rise from this here? All this Man wants is the Woman he Loves. You.