My parents always favored my older brother. It was mostly because 1. He’s always been a good liar, so they thought he was really innocent even though he was not. 2. He never showed his emotions or talked about his problems, so my parents felt as though he was the least trouble and the most “manly,” making me feel horribly flawed and emasculate as a male my entire life.

Long story short, I’m horribly insecure about everything such as looks, intelligence, personality, and just overall potential. I ended up being a loner, got bullied all my life, and I genuinely believed that people don’t like hearing about other’s pain, and that seeing things at face value is all that matters to them. I have myriads of trust and insecurity issues that have affected all of my relationships and friendships. Even though I’m at one of the best universities in the world now, I still feel unaccomplished and deeply missing. My brother, on the other hand, was always popular, graduated from an even better university, and openly talks about how beautiful life is, and why I’m a piece of shit for not appreciating it.