I'm so sorry. I really mean that. My flair should tell you that I've gone through the same thing you're going through now.

Let me tell you... My Bolt passed away on the 21st of December. He also died in my arms. I found solace in knowing that his final moments were spent in my arms. He wouldn't have wanted to go any other way, and neither would Nike.

You're going to experience a range of emotions during the coming months. It's going to hurt like hell for a week or two. Like hell. There will be a constant dull ache in your chest and Nike will be the only thing you think about in your waking hours. You might even dream about him.

Sooner or later that constant ache you feel will subside. You'll still hurt, but in a different kind of way. That, in my experience, stays with you for around 2 months. This pain is bearable, unlike the initial pain you feel in your core. You might also feel nothing for the first day or two. Like you're numb. That's okay too, don't feel guilt. You've just experienced what many would consider the most awful event in your life, and the numb feeling is your body helping you. It's normal.

Enough about the grief process. I just want you to know that you'll make it through this. I wish I'd had someone to reassure me a few months ago, because God knows I needed it.

You did your best. You gave him nearly 9 years of your love. That's not failure.

Live your life to the fullest. Live long and live happy. That's what Nike would want for you. Happiness. Live this life and when you're through, Nike will be there waiting for you.

Sending all my love your way my man. Nike is beautiful.