I have MS and am essentially on my own. My family lives pretty far and can’t help much anyway, so I mostly have not told them. I have been lucky to have good medical care and a light disease load- so while I’ve had numbness and lost vision in each eye several times, I’ve bounced back. But getting diagnosed meant I had to have a lifestyle change and now after a few years have made more sober lifestyle friends and figured out who I can count on. I was pretty alone there for a while. My dog passed away last year, after being in a lot of pain, and I still cry about it. She was my primary support through all the health and social crap. I recently got a promotion but the anxiety is real and it exacerbates symptoms and I worry that I’ll wake up numb - or since MS is progressive - worst and maybe this time I won’t bounce back. But this is the culmination of 20 years of working my ass off and I’m finally where I deserve to be professionally. But again, I’m alone out here and who will take care of me if I have a bad episode. I get treatments and feel like shit and ride them out alone. I do all of it alone. I suppose I don’t have a partner because I’m picky but I’ve always been so pragmatic and independent if I didn’t feel a good fit I didn’t think it necessary to just stick it out. Just started dating someone who lives kind of far, I really like him and want to try, in my experience relationships are feeling, romantic and platonic, so it’s hard for me to really count on anyone being in my life long term. Want to say I’m lucky and actually hopeful and all. Just carry a lot of unknowns on my solitary back.