I think this can happen so it shouldn't be taboo to talk about. Sexuality is pretty complicated. One individual person going through this doesn't mean anything about the nature of homosexuality and I understand that you're not saying it's not real. I feel like I have an almost opposite issue. I've known that I'm attracted to women since puberty, but I usually gravitate towards men who have way more power than me and always end up abusive. I don't find them attractive anymore once I get out. My attraction to women feels completely different and I've been noticing lately that it feels more real. With men it's just a "fantasy" trying to fix things with my relationship with men in general. Even though I "sexually respond" to men it's the feeling of being abused, and I have been wondering if I'm actually not bisexual recently. Because it's not men that I respond to it's the abuse basically. Like it's familiar and that might have tricked me but if I think about it at all it's an incredibly icky feeling that I don't ever want to feel again. So maybe I'm gay. I've been afraid to be with other women because my family is homophobic and treated me like shit when I dated girls in high school but that's so much less scary than men abusing me over and over. I can only imagine a woman actually loving me and I can only imagine myself happy in a relationship with a woman. I've been "researching" compulsory heterosexuality for about a year lol it's probably time to stop questioning myself