I'd work on getting off the meds, all that you think they are helping you with is within your control.
what about yourself are you unhappy with? don't answer here, but try to figure out what some of those things are and work on that.. focus on the things that can be within your control.
my guess: the anxiety most likely was within your control.. you probably kept thinking, what will I say, what will they say, what will they think, what will I do, what has my gf told them about me.... //puke then you took a magic pill of content, numbing your thoughts, repressing them...
have you seen these videos with Carl Jung yet?
Jung on Film (Zurich, Switzerland, August 1957)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWFWrKXAEPk
Carl Jung - Face to Face [BBC - 1959]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTBs-2cloEI
Carl Jung - Matter of Heart (1983)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxXyTrdgJKg