I rarely see an OP getting blasted with downvotes like this, and it should really be aeasage in itself to the OP. Depression is a serious matter. Period. If you're not taking it seriously enough, maybe now you will. If you're just looking for an outlet for your feelings, go pick up a paint brush or something (phone number for a therapist preferably). Social media isn't the place to go for what you're looking to do. Depression kills people all the time and it has wreaked havoc on my family for generations in many ways. There is nothing worse than people whining about their depression on the internet and then biting back when people offer genuine help. If you don't want help, then quit it. /s