Sigh. Lena is such a weird subject to me. I watched Girls for the first time when it was going into it's last season. I really enjoyed it (we are around the same age) . Then I go to the internet and see the accusations and criticisms . I'm like well ...
Is she a total cliche? Probably. Is what she said about her sister beyond fucked up? Yup. They are both adults now and I'm not sure what her sister has said publicly but I hope she is okay . Back to Lena, it's just too damn bad she couldn't just be content working with an amazing director on her own damn show because it was actually good with a meta type of self aware humor , even if she can't be that self aware in real life.
My post college romance was lost to a girl who reminds me of her so it took a while to take her stuff seriously . I didn't know the bad press when I did. The girl I knew was the total overbearing type who thinks she's saying something revolutionary and so hipster when really she's not. She had the Zoey bangs, septum piercing, went bralass joking about her small chest, and the glasses..I was more the go live your life, do what makes you happy type, we are still all trying to figure a lot out right now . He was fun and kind, but he super maleable I guess which I found out the hard way . The summer ended , we had the talk , I wasn't going to say pick me because the whole thing was a mind fuck for my 23 year old brain. I didn't understand how my dorky but romantically invigorating person who I had spent 6 months enjoying time with could change up our dynamic by saying he was in love with me and being super present when he had been seeing this other girl. Anyway, we both walked away, they got together, and he told me later that I should have been more assertive . A lot he told me wasn't wrong but I had stuff to work through and I couldn't do it by getting someone who told me how ...unlike him.
So I lived the next year super anxious for 3 months but then blissfully happy doing new things and learning to be respectfully assertive and self confident. I did this spoken word with my best friend which was so far outside my comfort zone but a lot of fun. She saw me on the flyer, showed up early and sat in the front row. She tried to approach me after and I was like wtf lol. Why is she doing this? I don't even know you really and you guys should be off doing your thing. She signed up to do it the next month. I can't help but feel like , don't pretend to be some enlightened feminist and then promote , engage, and continue well past necessary the petty ways women "fight. " Then , as they always do, he contacted me right before I moved . He continued to try and go back to what if scenarios for 3 years. He visited me a few times and we'd take the dogs to the park(1.5 hour drive ). It ran its course eventually. But it's hard not to feel some type of way about girls who think they're so original or authorities on subjects they have no business being on in overbearing ways. Not my style.