Today I woke up and I saw this comment. I felt an enormous amount of pressure on my head as I was trying to elucidate the information the had just went through my nerves into my brain, but no amount of effort would be enough to make me either accept, understand or even acknowledge this. I politely asked myself to calm down, but I just couldn't. I started running in circles (fast) trying to think of a way out, a way out of this reality, that I just can't live in anymore. My mind went back to 2017, the year I got into drag race, and questioned myself if it was all worth it. To go from minutes ago when I was a mildly healthy person to now, a person that's incapable of smiling ever again, is, to say the least, not the tea.