Thank you. That means a lot to me.

I guess it isn't too personal since I'm anonymous on my account. If it's okay I'll just say what's bothering me? I'd appreciate any sort of advice if that's not too much to ask, I don't want to bother anyone.

So last night my sibling called and randomly asked me to watch his kid (my niece) the following day for two hours because his gf had an appointment to go to but my sibling would be at work and they needed someone to watch her. They've never done this before. I don't like babysitting and they've never asked me to watch her before but I agreed because I'm afraid of disappointing people. Today went well and my niece is well mannered but that doesn't change how I feel about babysitting.

My niece starts kindergarten soon so I shouldn't be worrying but my dad let my sibling know everything went well so in my mind I'm worrying he'll get the idea that I don't mind looking after her. It's so stupid to assume but I can't calm down about it.

Im trying to relax over it all because I'm allowed to say no but it's making me just feel really upset.

If I don't like babysitting I'm allowed to decline any requests in the future right? If there are any.

Also if the fact they've never asked me to do this all these five years + she's starting school should I even be worried he'd ask again? It seems like they were just in a pinch and asked me last minute.

I hate this. I lose sleep over the dumbest shit (I barely slept last night leading up to watching my niece today). I clearly have anxiety but that's another obstacle I'll figure out. For now I just want to friendly words I suppose :(

Sorry for dumping all this on you. I'll probably delete it later just in case.