It's quite complex to explain it but I'm inbetween naming it "survival theory" and "to survive," it's an embodiment of life after hardship, with the Animus (like a part of the unconsious mind, you can look it up on wikipedia) representing the big recovery you make afterwards. The animus is a person that basically guided the main person's survival. He represents many things of her unconsious mind, and getting to know him is getting to know herself. It is also a representation of how when you get to know people you change as a person yourself because you gain perspective and grow. I don't know how to really describe it without telling you the whole story because it's really personal and unique, but it also focuses on perspective through letters, poetry and writing over many years, and how you kind of get different perspectives on life and develop the idea of survival, like a theory about it.

Sorry if that made like, no sense, but it's essentially a lot of things I've learnt about my life and how I have survived a lot, but represented through a fictional story with a couple of psychological theories/ideas tied to it. It's more of an emotional outpouring and also her own journey, with part 2 of the book ending with her finally being unafraid of intimacy with the animus, representation of how you become comfortable and accept many difficult things in your life but decide to live on despite everything. And when she wakes up, he is gone.

I'm still working on the idea, I have been working on adding and changing the idea of it for many months. I've written some things down but can't wait to start writing. I know how therapuetic it will be to finally express all the things I've been through in my favourite way, through a story. And the best way to convey an idea is through a story; psychological theories are very long and exhausting to learn, but through a story you have emotional attachment to it and can relate to it.

I wrote a lot but that made me really happy and helped me think about it more <3