I have a rule against asking people out. For the most part, I just tell someone if I'm into them and figure if they're interested, something will happen and the whole thing will be less stressful because we won't have that whole "are they into this, or...???" uncertainty. About a month ago, I decided to break with protocol and just ask someone out because I decided I didn't know them well enough to know for sure that I liked them, but wouldn't ever have the chance to figure out unless I spent more time with them. He said yes, we had a wonderful first date, and then two weeks passed before a follow up was planned. The follow up (last Thursday) was something of a minor disaster, and I've barely heard him them since. I've tried not reading too much into it because I know he's got a busy schedule, but it's been a month since I first asked him out and I'm still not even sure he's actually attracted to me. (He says he's interested and I have no doubt he thinks very highly of me, but there's something I can't quite put my finger on and it's driving me out of my head.)
To further aggravate things, a guy friend of mine I had way too much drama with last year recently started "making nice" again after a big fight at the end of the year, and he showed up to last night's event for the first time in months. It was super awkward trying to balance talking to both of them as things wrapped up, and again, I can't place what was going on with the guy I went out with when he saw us getting into my friend's (pretty flashy) car and made a comment about it, but it just felt weird and awkward and now I just don't know what to do. I sent him a text saying it was just a friend, but he never responded, and this whole damn mess is just convincing me that I should stick to my original policy and not ask anyone out because the confusion and nerves just aren't worth it. I like this guy, but I don't have the foggiest idea what he's after, and I spent too many years married to someone who wasn't attracted to me to have any interest in dating someone who feels that same way.
Also, I'm supposed to have dinner at Fogo de Chao with my friend tonight, but now I kinda don't want to because I'm just so down in the dumps and miserable over how this whole situation is going. :(