And I will also throw this in here just in case you have free time and feel like you want to indulge. If not thats fine too take care and thanks again!!!
Just for a little perspective: I'm in my 30's and masturbated for most of that since maybe 9. I grew up overseas so I have no affiliation with western body shaming religions, which I don't find offensive, but my point is I have no shame over my body functions, including defecation. I have no regrets with masturbating or anything, nor feel ashamed for having done it. I quit it maybe 3 years ago because I found porn to become increasingly boring and it was taking up time. So I quit.
After that I have crazy energy that I've been able to channel to do better things. Like I said, I don't find masturbation evil at all. I didn't grow up in an environment where I'm taught where objective good or evil exist, they're human-created concepts based on the effect you have on others and society. I however did it a few times and realized incredible exhaustion from it.
I'm talking 3 sessions of sex = no problem. 1 time masturbating = lethargicness, exhaustion, desire to be left alone, tired, want to sleep and generally not satisfied.
I'm posting this because I haven't masturbated in months, but a long distance girl has been flirting with me and I've been kind of blueballed and realized I need to release the pressure. I blew a huge load in a gold course (did I mention I have no shame about bodily functions? I don't regret it either) I was fine for about 10 minutes, and god, the mental haze, the exhaustion, the heavy legs, everything came back.
I was hoping to find out if anyone discovered the reason why this happens. Thats why I posted this. I would say even a sliver of self doubt started coming back, like an echo chamber of self-hatred. I didn't break any personal pledge or religious code or anything. I'd jizz on someones freshly painted house if I wouldn't get caught and didn't feel the exhaustion afterwards. (Ok, I'm seriously joking about that, I'm trying to illustrate here that I could masturbate anywhere and not really give a crap if it weren't for the exhaustion that follows)