I wonder how frustrating it will be to look back if i have to drop out, and realize it was all because of my pure stupidity, this situation could have been easily avoided but now im fucked up.

Speaking as someone who also was a terrible student, I dropped out of college after my second year, never to return. I wound up doing okay due to luck, but hardly a week goes by even after 23 years without me regretting the choices I made which led to me dropping out.

I may have wound up with a good job, but my career choices are limited and the thought of losing my job is a bit scary since I've worked my way to a level where a degree is normally required. And I'm very insecure when talking to people my own age and college comes up. It's very embarrassing to be 44 and having to tell people I dropped out of college because I was a dumb kid who made bad choices.

Try to turn your shit around. Do whatever it takes. Grovel, plead, beg. Finish high school.