My ex girlfriend put me on suicide watch. The problems I thought were there really weren't at first, but she started cheating on me and I loved her so much it was hard to leave her. She was a convincing person. However, on my 20th birthday, I somehow let her drive me so deep into depression that I got picked up by the cops and was tricked into signing a form saying I had to stay in the mental ward for at least 48 hours. Toxicology showed Marijuana, Xanax, Cocaine, and heavy amounts of alcohol. I don't remember a thing other than waking up, walking out of my room, and speaking for two hours with a girl my age that was so deep into whatever sickness she had, she regularly "spoke" with angels and demons. I was simply a kid trapped in a cage he didn't belong in.

My depression was almost branded into me by that girl. I always guessed who she was cheating on me with, what she was saying, and what she was doing at all times. It became so obsessive that I would unlock her phone anytime she wouldn't take it with her (she did that a lot, because in retrospect she had a lot to hide.). You think once you get cheated on, if they beg you back the only way to get over it is to cheat on them.. but again, depression lies. I became so god damn depressed, and yet I didn't leave her for 8 months after I went to a fucking mental ward over her.

What got me out of it all was actually to give up on some things at first. Self esteem, my old friends, just about everything that was currently bringing me sadness/anguish. I feel like the only way to fight depression is to get to a point where you just accept you're depressed and that's that, then move forward and try to make your "depressive" life, good one thing at a time. Make a new friend, do something that further anything in your life (clean my room, do decent on a test).

Everyone's depression is different. You just have to force yourself to accept your situation and make the best of each moment, rather than even trying to tackle depression itself.

That's my two cents.