Yeah I watch a lot of anime and stuff. It helps me stay distracted. I also spend way too much time on reddit. It feels so unhealthy honestly. I wish there was someone here to push me to do different thing. I know that’s too much to expect from someone but I am in a really low place to try things myself. It sucks because before going to sleep is the only time I can distract myself. Last night I had a nightmare that I told my friend I like them. I woke up and checked my message and was soo relieved. I been shaking all day from that. I am honestly really scared to sleep because theses are recurring dreams. I don’t why It got so bad in the past few months. I have tired so hard to contain it.