I understand that you are suffering.

I want to encourage you to own your experience by speaking more with 'I' pronouns and less with 'you' pronouns. It's common, and it can work to connect because many of us have similar experiences, but phrasing your experience in terms of yourself and owning what you went through with deliberate word choice will serve you in the long run.

That being said, I sympathize with your grief to learn that respect and a trusting/hands off approach in an LTR don't really work with women.

One thing about men is that there are some of us who have to learn the stove burns by placing our hands on it. Many men will learn the hard way that respect and trust in an LTR doesn't work.

Respect your feelings, don't suppress them, but do continue what you are doing which is learning for yourself and sharing what you learned. The grief will pass in time and you will be able to decide what to do for your life, you have a lot of options.

You can go your own way. You can play the field. You can try to have a "RP" LTR with a RP inclined woman. You have options, and pick the option that will bring you the greatest satisfaction.

However, now you know about AWALT. Do not deceive yourself or let yourself be deceived about that or you will have wasted the lesson. Frame your choices in terms with what you learned, don't bite the porcupine twice.