I went with gray rock until I felt that I could not simply take it anymore. I was aware of the manipulative game that where my mother was in and I ended my relationship with her last time we talked through a phonecall. It was totally unplanned event for that specific date, but it was a consideration of 3 long years where I felt that I had to do it someday. But when I was being subject to shame, fear and obligation throughout the phonecall and being perfectly aware how she operates, I opened up everything about why I don't see her as a mother and why I am not ever going to be in contact with her again. I had so much unvented rage inside me that I verbally annihilated her to a point she could not say anything back.

Three years back, still at NC. My life is so much better compared to past, though I still have problems - but I have less problems. My parents have tried to connect with me about 10 (or god knows how many times, that is just what I know), through letters, texts, emails and visits. Ignored each of them, with the exception of meeting edad who visited me to have a form of closure. It's been about 8 months after that, and I have not had a single letter from them. I am feeling like the storm has been passed.