I saw your comments about feeling scared or like you're abandoning him. One of the hardest parts is how we have all these memories of our Qs and want to believe it's salvageable, and navigating that. It's such an absurd and shitty situation to be in. And it is scary in multiple ways--having to forge a new path on your own, how people can be swayed by propaganda, etc. But I know for me personally I felt a lot of relief leaving too, and that was the sign leaving was the right decision to make. No more eggshells, no more having every conversation regress to conspiracies. These people in our lives stunt our growth, stunt our healing. It's no good. I wish you the best and relief and that in a year we can look back and be thankful for our decisions.