Chatting with girl who was a 10 for my personal tastes. We started out casual, hello in passing at school, but it started to turn into a summer fling kind of deal. We weren't openly attracted to each other but we would talk every day, from rise until sleep. Conversations started to get really deep, then personal, and eventually quite sexual.

We arrange a date after a few months of intense talking and some casual hanging. She tells me to bring condoms - tells me all the filthy stuff she wants to do. Honestly a little too fast for me but whatevs, I could manage. I meet up with her and we go out.

She's acting a little weird, but OK. Just gets weirder throughout the night. I actually don't make a move on her because she's acting so squirrely, don't even kiss her. Just hold her hand at one point and try to tell her to relax, but she won't, and the date ends pretty fast.

The next day she spends hours sending me the cruelest messages I've ever received. Tells me I'm a creep and that my company made her want to cut her skin off, goes on a whole thing about how I'm the worst, lowest kind of person. Says I made her feel threatened and afraid (even though she established the sexual context in the first place, and I did nothing). Many more cruel things I didn't commit to memory.

These things only hurt so bad because I trusted her, and had spent the whole summer basically talking to her exclusively. It's been years now, but sometimes I still want to contact her... To tell her how cruel it was to spin things around on me like that, and to try to make me feel subhuman when I was being as cool as I could. She deliberately tried to make me hate myself, and that's what I really can't stand. I know some bad stuff happened to her but now she's as bad as whoever hurt her, I'm bitter that she's just part of the cycle of pain now and probably isn't even self-aware about it.