I feel on that last point. Every time I get close to anyone I start getting super angry at them. I feel a need to hurt them. My last boyfriend? Yeah I broke up with him by shouting him out of the house after we had a wonderful night and maybe a little buttfucking. Literally nothing wrong with that night, and I flipped out at hin for no good reason. My last girlfriend? I got a job somewhere else and ghosted her. I don't have any family (they're all ded, I'm the only child of two single children with no brothers or sisters and that and their parents are dead) and i haven't talked to her in months, I've ignored her texts. Left all my friends behind and have made new ones, don't feel any guilt. And these are friends I've had since childhood.

Every time I do this I get immense pleasure out of it. I feel good about this and I know it's wrong but I don't care, it feels so nice. I've broken up with almost all of my 8 boyfriends/girlfriends in this name manner. Some still message me and I laugh at them for it.