Work is shit and you are lazy. That's it.

For many people there is no job out there that they enjoy. That's how it is. Many people just hate working. Doing literally anything professionally, be that blogging, running or research is so different from doing them as a hobby that people like you or me will hate them.

I know how hard it is to overcome that lazyness. I am a lazy fuck myself. If I did what I wanted all the time I would mostly be sitting on my ass. For every little thing I do I need discipline and I need to tell myself that I will feel good afterwards. I find solace in the fact that I do a job that I fully stand behind morally. 95% of the time I would want to be doing something else regardless.

What you need is getting rid of all of those excuses of yours. They are hurting you. All reasons for your failures are illegitimate. Health issues diagnosed by a real doctor are the only exception.

What you generally need is discipline as that is the only virtue I know that helps. What you need practically is a schedule. Do productive things (it doesn't really matter what) every day for a certain time. At least five days a week. When I was unemployed after university I had the same schedule for every weekday. I exercised (cycling or gym) for at least two hours in the morning, did the household for me and my wife (she brought in the money) afterward and then applied to at least one job. Without that schedule I would have gone insane after a month.