The bad started to outweigh the good. We would fight every time we met. She would constantly say things to shut me down or “win” an argument through my silence. She could never be wrong and if I didn’t take her side then I was against her. Everything I said or did seemed to antagonize her. And she never apologized for any of it. I have trouble opening up to our mutual friends about this as I suspect she and I had a toxic friendship.

And then again to another friend who started talking about my issues to other people. Found out when a mutual friend asked me about it. Starting to think maybe I’m the problem and I think I need put myself first for a while rather than commit so much energy into supporting my friendships.

I believe we can be friends again because hey, people can change. Trying to stay positive