Having to put your dog to sleep to end his suffering. I had to do this yesterday morning and have been mindlessly browsing reddit since. I'm Just trying to make time pass I guess. Replying to a couple of comments like everything is normal. What's messed up is that Max was only 4 years old. Well he would have been 5 in March.

God, loosing a parent is really rough too. My mother passed away in December. I miss my Mom terribly and was devasted. But I feel terrible because it seems like loosing my dog has hit me harder. I've cried more over having to put my dog to sleep than after my Mom passed away. I'm currently having trouble reconciling that.

I think I would be worse off if not for Max's littermate brother Gus. I've had them both since they were 8 weeks old. He seems to be okay but I'm not sure if he realizes yet.