I play all parts of life ‘like a video game’. I once kissed someone in a consensual environment. Purely to understand the mechanics of it.

I had to fail a lot, and ‘replay’ social situations a lot to make friends.

Maybe you don’t experience life the way I do, but it’s very mechanical.

When I am attracted to someone, I tend to stare with a blank face. So, I had to stare at actors photos, to know how to ‘turn on my face’. To have the same attracted look as someone else.

It must be nice, to not accidentally put out platonic vibes. But, you don’t seem to know what that’s like. I am glad you can’t relate, it can be hell living like this. I am glad you don’t know what it’s like.