Thank you, I really appreciate your response. It definitely was a different time when we were younger... even more so for your older friend. I tried talking with my son about it once, but it was very difficult so I just alluded to it... he commented how I was the most dramatic person he knew and many of his friends are into musical theater, so I think he gets it but I haven't been able to outright say it.

I can see religion being a common path for bisexual people, especially growing up with that idea of it being a choice. My city is quite conservative so being a single young dad here, interacting with mostly conservative christians made things much more difficult.

I have sorta accepted it on and off since I was young, but always backtracked. I remember crushes on guys I've had since I was very little, but I attributed it to wanting a "bromance"...but it was more than that. Also, I was almost exclusively friends with girls and close to my female relatives so it must have been obvious to some people. The handful of guy friends I had growing up ended up being gay or trans.

I have wanted to go to the local county LGBT center for a long time, but I'm afraid. I know once I do it everything will get better, but it's still difficult.

Thank you again for your comment.