when you’re a feminine man you want to live your life as a feminine man, when I was young I envisioned myself being an old woman, not an old feminine man. and now, today, I still envision my life as a girl, not a feminine man - mtF is initially existing as male and then going through the transitionary process to exist as female. My gender feels female, I feel masculine at times as well, just like everyone does, but my dominating energy is female, and I should reiterate that it does not just feel feminine, but female - gender identity has a lot to do with feeling, in order to label our identification.

The way I view my sex is tricky, anatomically I posses developed secondary sex characteristics of both sexes - I still have my original sex organs and plan to keep them, healthily. I’ve been in HrT for 4 years so my hormonal makeup is more female than male, in turn my body’s function is more female than male as my body now functions properly through E instead of T, of course.

Similar to how flowers and bell peppers have male and female differentiation, there is rigidity in the defined sexes. nonetheless, that is what the trans experience is about - a misconfiguration in one’s sex and gender. despite being assigned male at birth and coerced into living life as a boy, I chose to pursue the path that felt correct within my soul, which is existing in reality as female - when I started hormones my entire world opened up and the brain fog I had been experiencing for my entire life began to clear up around 6mo-1yr on hrt, having the correct hormones in my body did a lot for me mentally, physically, and spiritually. The blossoming if my reality had no choice but to follow suit, naturally. I hope this gave you some insight, x