See but how is this your sisters fault? I never understood a “crush” because you just putting a person on a pedestal. A person you hope will love you, and then you get to be with them maybe. Then when you do you get used to this person and have the nerve to get upset with this person or tell them what to do. Yell at them for making you jealous or other things less intense but still lacking the worship from before. When you get your crush, your ego is the one that skyrockets. Trust me. I’ve dating girls that liked me and then when they had me, treated me like they owned me or started acting toxic or the gifts stop etc . I’d rather keep you chasing the carrot (the facade you put on to get me interested). Maybe I’m toxic.