The way I’ve my moral standing has always been similar to goodie two, got tons of people validated and vouched for it as they came to me for a second opinion along the way.

At the same time I’m well aware—and mostly in motion—of being neglectful, wicked, and blasphemous towards my own belief and moral.

It feels like I’m a walking contradictory since these thoughts being loud and occurring at the same time. ex: I strongly believe that God, the higher power, exists therefore living in consequences, great patience, worship fate, and yada yada yada. Whilst half of that thought stand being its own counterpart; at once, it occurred to me that life itself is pointless; seeing that you’d born just to suffer and worship the higher power till life’s ran outta fuel, how fate is unjust, God itself is a pity existence thus the creation of humanity is just a product to His boredom rendered.