Once upon a time someone showed interest in me. We had things in common, we met though mutual friends, everyone told me how nice he was, and in truth he was very friendly. When he told me I was cute and started messaging me I was overjoyed. Eventually things turned more sexual and it was obvious he was hitting on me - and I let it happen. I went with it. I was an idiot.

Literally right after he came he started talking about how much he loved my best friend, how hard she made him when she sat on his lap. Turns out while he was doing all this with me he was dating my best friend and she had told everyone but me. I freak, and I told her what had happened and she flipped - but this is her first relationship, she doesn't want to leave him. So she doesn't.

3 days later he messages me again. How should he kiss her? How should he hold her? How can he get her into bed (because I'm so easy)? He continues to flirt with me, press my buttons. Then from her I'm being told how awful it is that she now has to think about valentines day, that he's always playing video games, that he's always flirting with her, can't keep her hands off her. I have the rest of the group telling me how cute they are together, how long she's been head over heels for him, how great it is he's finally got his first girlfriend.

She doesn't want the rest of our friendship group to know about the whole issue - none of them know you see. I haven't told her that he continued to flirt with me, and get close to me at work, physically touch me. She doesn't know that part of me loved it, I felt wanted, that I won't stop crying. There's no point telling her any of this because it won't change anything. Now neither of them talk to me, they have each other now, and I hate myself for feeling lonely and abandoned.

Im just so confused all the time. Sad, angry and nothing all at the same time.

I didn't mean a thing to him. And now she's chosen him over me.

And I can't talk to anyone.