So I’ll tell you something, maybe it’s possible that “life already kicked me in the teeth” for years, since I’m able to think. Finally when I was a teen I figured out how to repress the pain, I was always kinda vulnerable; then in summer I had a collapse - I couldn’t talk nor clearly think nor sleep nor anything else for 1-2 weeks, I completely lost my sense of self (ex. I was like that mbti type ESTP now I’m INTJ, and the thing is I am really like that bc there is nothing underneath. The only thing I could do, was to create a new base to work from). As a child I was abused either psychological or physical, or both, until I was an older teen. I was abandoned, backstabbed etc, by my parents and also other people that were close to me, and also that not only once or twice. I had to learn how to survive and to do so, there was no helping hand I could reach. Until this day there’s still no one I could really reach out to and I have to survive on my own. Yes I am indeed full of myself but I have to be like that bc no one else is.

I always felt like being at war, but that persona I created and described is the one I chose to live with. So don’t tell me anything about me, you don’t have a clue who I really am.

But yes, I am indeed young and attractive, thanks :)