we lost a really good man a few years ago 'tomorrow'. I remember that he sent me a few messages to me on 'today': he wants to hang out but I had been looking after him for days. I have children and my own issues. I also had a hangover and I also had a chang over and so I ignored them. I wish so much I hadn't. But so many times that I had they drained me and I know I can't be responsible for all of it but I can't help but feel on this one night that I am. he pleaded with me about chemistry we had and to please answer him and I didn't because I was selfish. So he died. Alone and fa away from everyone. I didn't know. I couldn't know. I should have known. I don't even know why I'm saying this I guess it just is an out loud confession I've never done jack if you are in any way able to hear my sentiments I still text you I still ring you I still talk to you. I think of you and I love you everyday his last social media posting was an image: life is short don't be lazy. thanks for listening everyone sorry happy New Year