It seems like a lot of the issues would be resolved if your employer could create a more structured pattern for you.

Yeah, I think so. Couldn't make it worse anyway.

One thing to consider is that perhaps you're being unrealistic in your expectations of yourself.

That's probably true. I'm a perfectionist (not always in a good way) and I have very high expectations of myself. If I'm very honest with myself I think I could do the work (and do it well) if I could just do it "my way". I might need a little more time since I can't really do many things at once and I might need more structure and clearer instructions. If I get that and if they're patient then I should be fine. Isn't that too much to ask though?

As for being told you ask too many questions, that's a complete crock of shit...Questions are how people learn, especially Aspies as we often need to clarify or query presumptions about things we already know.

I tried to spread out the questions so I didn't ask the same person all the time but I guess that didn't really work. I suspect what they found annoying is that I asked about things they had already told me (verbally). How to do something, where certain things can be found in the lab etc. Since I'm so incredibly afraid of making mistakes I feel the need to ask questions as soon as I'm unsure of things. I'd rather ask and actually learn than making mistakes and getting more worried. But yeah, now I'm even worried about asking questions.

I think I'm going to talk to my psychologist about disclosing again and see what she says.

Either way I hope you're able to resolve this. Employment is very difficult for Aspies and it sounds like (correct me if I'm wrong), this is one of your first jobs?

I'd say it's my second "real" job. Anyway, thank you for writing. Means a lot.