Welcome to "adulthood". I personally believe this is how most people feel - the only difference being the degree to which each of us pretends to be a respectable member of (a fucked up) society. If I could do anything I could with my life right now I would be probably somewhere protecting whales or rainforests. Instead, I trapped myself into debt that forced me to find a so called "job" (read "stupid meaningless idiotic waste of three quarters of the time I'm awake"), becoming a gear in the very machine I hate so much, helping to produce stuff we don't really need, all while exploiting Earth for nothing more than economic growth. And yeah, that kid inside me that has always believed I was born to make this world a better place is crying and screaming because of that. Yet right now I see no other option for myself than pretending not to hear it, acting like I'm "normal", being ok with spending most of my time with something I hate deep inside. I live for the hope that once I get out of debt (fortunatelly it's not a mortgage and I should be able to pay it off in 2-4 years) I can finally start living for other priorities than having a stable income. But right now, I too feel lost (being almost 34). You're not alone...