You just brought back some memories of me getting bullied on the bus constantly, wow. I remember from 5th-8th (we went to a k-8 school so I knew a lot of kids for years) I was heavily bullied cause I was “fat”. To be honest, I thought I was average size or at least a couple pounds more but I wasn’t obese at all. I guess my bullies just thought I was a fat nerd cause my twin sister was skinner as when we were born premature, she was beyond tiny (1 pound) and I was the more should be weight/healthy weight of 2 pounds. My sister was always smaller because of this, she was like 10 pounds lighter than me but also a couple inches shorter, but apparently that made me look like a complete fat ass while her ass got praised.

I remember my bullies would ride the bus with me and just constantly throw stuff at me. I remember walking home and just getting the remarks of “here comes thunder thighs!” “be careful, she’s gonna cause an earthquake” for years. I remember them constantly trying to push me and trying to trip me by kicking me. They even egged our house one time cause I told them to leave me alone and I couldn’t even tell my parents because they always told me that I should just ignore the bullies. I tried, and guess what? I still got bullied everywhere I went for years. It’s weird being 10/11 and already thinking about suicide. I could have gotten revenge but I was a girl who was tiny, I was like 4’10 and my bullies were all school athletes and were guys. They could beat my ass easily and showed me they could.

At school teachers never saw a thing. Except for one time in 8th grade where a guy pushed me in front of everyone and I was just balling my eyes out that a teacher took me in her classroom. I can’t remember if I told her or not what happened, but I know the guy never got in trouble anyways. It sucked being bullied at school then on the way back home. Just remembering how many times I got compared to my sister makes me sad. At recess when we would line up, a new kid would find out there was twins and ask people how they know the difference and it was “oh, (my name) is fat and ugly while (sister’s name) is the prettier and skinny twin” ouch. Then I remember them making everything about me being fat. Once at a table with my bully, he asked who would the table eat first if we got stranded on an island and he said he would eat me first cause I’m more fat therefore more meat and everyone just agreed while I felt like crying. This was always in teacher’s earshot, but nothing was ever done. Other people who were bullied worse than me reported it and everytime a teacher took the bullys’ side even though these kids were known to this shit but the moment someone yelled back at them, they got in trouble.

I think the worse of all was that my sister didn’t do anything to stop the bullying. She literally dated the guy who was the worst of all. She heard him constantly calling me a fat ass, she knew he made me cry every single day, the reason as to why I didn’t want to go outside and yet she claims she was oblivious to the bullying. When I brought it up how she can date such a guy, she said if there was any bullying, to get over it. Your sister was suicidal since the age of 10 and you just ignoring it and not defending her made it so much worse. I think she liked the attention of being the prettier twin, she never denied it, she literally never made it stop even when it was her BOYFRIEND doing the bullying. It was just a final stab to the heart, honestly.

Anyways, now I’m over bullying. In a new high school some bitch tried to make me feel bad for wearing a “I woke up like this” shirt and said “I would hate it if I woke up like her” and I just said “and I would hate to wake up as a stupid ass bitch who can’t even do basic science” and she just shut up for the rest of the time I was there. Then went to a new school after that and no one ever bullied me literally, it was so nice to not expect someone pushing you other than trying to get to class on time, etc. I’ve gotten over my sister not defending me cause in high school we both got fat and she became the anti-social one in college (which is rn) lmfaooo, sucks to suck doesn’t it?