I think everybody experiences this differently.

I get obsessive about these things but I feel differently about them. I'd never want to meet any crush, partially because it all feels very private to me and I don't want them to be able to "sense" it - or something, I feel like they'll be able to see it, look into my soul, and I'll feel humiliated.

I also don't have feelings for them, and if I really ask myself honestly, I'd probably say that if I met them I doubt very much I would like them. I too will do the whole reading every interview thing, but I guess because I've read every interview I know enough to know we wouldn't get on IRL.

With me, it's a kind of an avoidance tactic. In the past, obsessive fantasies have occurred when I've been trapped in a bad situation in real life. The first occurred out of the blue when I was 16. Completely freaked me out because I had zero interest in celebrities before then - didn't even know their names. I felt completely humiliated by it and went to lengths to try and hide the fact I was a "fan".

It disappeared overnight when I managed to change my life situation. Since then it reappears - sometimes same celeb, sometimes different ones - when I can't cope with life or when I feel hopeless, or when there's something happening to me that I really just can't deal with. It's like taking a brain holiday.

I still don't like it, I don't enjoy it happening, I get angry about it sometimes because it feels like my brain is wantonly wasting my time. But over the years I accept it more and more as a coping mechanism and I trust I'll gather the strength to get over it and re-engage with my life before long.