Several things. I went on a date with a man that lived with his parents who were hoarders and then decided to clips his toenails in front of me. Went on a date with a man that was into diapers (nothing against diaper fetishes but it was just not something I could get into). Went on a few other dates where nothing happened and never contacted me again even though I thought it went well. Talked to many many many men, most of them where I sent the first message. They message back out of courtesy i think.. because after some simple conversation and maybe some laughs they just disappear into the sunset. My sister in law convinced me to go into a "yes phase" where I said yes to situations where I would not normally say yes to. I had a one night stand (I tried messaging him back because it was actually nice, but he was not interested). I "dated" a married man who was in a open relationship, talked to his wife and everything but it was too complicated and honestly I think she wanted the open relationship because she wasn't happy sexually in the relationship. Then I had a long running fwb with a guy I graduated with. I had the biggest crush on him my senior year and he would never give me the time of day. Found out from another friend that he lived in my city and since HS he was way more upfront and very... cocky? Basically he told me he wanted a fwb but would never consider dating me. It was honestly easy for me... his personality was so different that I just .. wasn't that hung up on it. Though because it was just a fwb and he refused to kiss me... I stopped talking to him because it would start to remind me that I wasn't getting what I really wanted... annnnnnd I'm back to square one. Sorry all of the other guys besides the fwb I met via dating websites. Sorry for the ramble haha.