Thank you so much for your honest answer. I'm happy that it worked out so well for you--I've heard a couple of stories of unwilling/ambivalent fathers or mothers who resented their children, so I'm glad to hear that someone can be ambivalent and have their mind changed by their child. I'm sorry to hear about the PPD, though.

Do you think you developed an urge to nurture and to sacrifice your own needs and desires after the child was born? Or do you feel like you have to force yourself to sacrifice for your children because you love them? I guess I'm just trying to suss out how drastic of a mental change it is from nulliparity to motherhood; having never had children, I really can't fathom it.

I also have body image issues (and past eating disorders), so I know how hard that can be, and I can't imagine dealing with it during pregnancy :(

Knowing what you know now, do you think you would have made the same decision if your husband was ambivalent about kids as well, if you really disliked kids, and if you had had career aspirations? Do you think being a mother would be rewarding enough than anyone who can do it should, regardless of such factors?