For me. It was the fact that I accidentally got into a complicated relationship with 2 people at the same time. Where I asked one person and they realized they weren't ready for a relationship mentally. Than 12 hours after the breakup, a friend who previously hated the fact that I had a crush on him smooched me and stated he wanted to date me.

After that. The person who broke up with me and myself still had large amounts of romantic tension, and then My current BF made me choose between him or the other person. I naturally couldn't decide so I spent the year dating both trying to feel things out.

I've decided now that in terms of romantic chemistry. I work a lot better with my boyfriend. But that doesn't mean I love the other person just as much as him. Just for completely different reasons.

That being said. A part of it also has to do with the longevity of my life. I'm not really sure how much time I have with this world. I'm diabetic and auto immune problems and cancer run in the family. For all I know, I could have 10 years left or I could have 50. But my main fear is living a life with regret, so I want to explore my options before settling down.

I love my Boyfriend a ton. I intend on settling down with him and marrying him someday. But right now while everything is uncertain. I have to keep things open until I resolve my previous feelings and also become more financially independent from my family.