It was edibles. A small amount at that. I used to eat a gummy every night. I stopped around three years ago when we decided to have a baby. My tolerance is next to nothing right now.

The cognitive dissonance I’m experiencing while coming to terms with my husbands nonstop covert abuse seemed to go off the rails while high. It was like my brain just imploded with realizations/fear. I talked through a lot with my therapist this morning. She’s pretty confident my cognitive dissonance is on par for the duration of abuse. And that it would make sense that any alterations of my perception via drugs or alcohol would heighten my feelings of cognitive dissonance.

Thank you guys for the input though. I know it seems bizarre.