This is your life, your body, your health, not anyone else’s. I’d wait to have a child til I was more settled and had a loving, mature father for the child. Your gut is telling you something. Believe it. Btw, I never ever felt that I “wanted this thing outta me” and I’m not judging you I’m just pointing out that your fear is real and justified imo. It’s complicated bc all your family knows now. You could travel to a legal state and tell them you miscarried or whatever you feel comfortable saying, OR consider giving it up for adoption if you think would realistically happen. You’re so young with so much ahead of you and so much on your plate already (including your bf).