Avoidant & Addiction.

Broke up with my avoidant ex two months ago after a three-month relationship and still very much hung up on her. She contacted me three days after I broke up with her asking to be friends. I foolishly agreed and we've been navigating the anxious-avoidant dance yet again, albeit with far less contact and meet-ups. We've slept together a few times and kissed on various occasions. I'm hopeful we can reconcile but my anxiety is through the roof. I also told her about AT and she said it all made sense when I told her she's a DA and I'm AP. If I had any sense, I'd walk away and move on. My mental health has been through the ringer since September when things start to go poorly between us. Suicidal ideation has crossed my mind several times. It's not healthy and I don't recommend pursuing a DA without first healing. Ironically, false hope has kept me roped in and I'm obstinate towards my own advice and common sense.

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