I'm in the same situation as you, except that I never actually dated my high school crush. Still, I was too hung up on her to chase after other girls, so I'm still a virgin.

This summer, she just broke up with her second boyfriend. I was ecstatic, and almost immediately asked her if she wanted to go for a walk in the park. We've been best friends for awhile now, so I saw it more as me helping her out than me trying to swoop down on her. Anyways, while we were walking, our conversation led toward sex. After awhile, she told me that she was happy to have someone who had the same views on it as she did. For a moment I was worried that she had found out I was trying to get in her pants, but then she said that we were the only two people she knew who were still virgins.

This entire time I've been thinking that she was fucking other guys, and it would honestly keep me up at night. So, when I realized that she was still a virgin, I was relieved, yeah? If I got with her, we'd both experience it for the first time together. My wildest dream was starting to blossom.

Then I thought about it. I'm about to move across the state for college in two days, where I was originally planning on plowing a new chick every night, since my friend wouldn't be in the back of my mind anymore. But if I do that, I'll basically be screwing over the magic of experiencing sex with another virgin for the first time. Even if I don't end up with her, I'll be able to experience it with someone else if I wait for marriage. My first time will really be SPECIAL, and not just with some random girl I'd probably break up with in a month or two.

I'm not religious. At all. But from one freshman to another, I'm begging you to wait until marriage. I can guarantee you it'll be much better if you've only done it with your wife, even if she isn't a virgin.