Bad mood when stimmed...

You said anyone, so I've for a story for you. I've been dabbling responsibly with ice for 3-4 months. Not partying but super productive days at work. I've taken days off and have very functional in every way. I have noticed lately memory issues along with paranoia. So last night I flushed 1.5 of clean fire share down the toilet because I didnt want to consume it. (I took a video of it if you're curious https://www.icloud.com/sharedalbum/#B0WGqkRUisd39A

Even at moderate doses I'm experiencing health issues. I literally know zero people who do this. No one knows about my secret. So I don't even have a friend who wouldn't enjoy a gift. So I pulled an all nighter last night. It was pretty boring actually. That type of behavior is better suited for companionship of the opposite sex. I have a son who lives with his mom and he was scheduled to be dropped off at 6:15 am. At 5:30 am I was racing the clock trying to get a nut and never did. I don't even have a sexual partner at all right so it's not like the tension will be released anytime soon. I didn't have meth dick...it was rock hard but the poor guy wasn't in the mood for hand. He never is. So Monday at work I'll be sober for the first time in months. I'm not worried about too much. So much of what you think speed is actually doing to motivate you, is actually a false sense of motivation and efficiency. I'm actually just as fast if not faster sober. It just feels good to work a little spun. Ah well....it was a good experience but it's over now. I won't be buying anymore. I can feel certain things happening i my body that are not cool at all. Prolonged use would certainly land me in the hospital before too long. Anyway, since I don't have anyone to talk to about this, it feels good to be able to tell someone even if I don't know who you are. Cheers

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